GOING THROUGH IT JUNE 25TH 2023

“Do what you feel in your heart to be right―for you’ll be criticized anyway.”

―Eleanor Roosevelt

GOING THROUGH IT

Recently, my friend posted on her social media saying she was tired of thinking and feeling. Well, SAME. I’m definitely in a form of depression and feeling exactly that, tired of thinking and feeling. I had post surgery depression last year too so I am assuming I may be going through it again. A lot of things just really getting to me: My life, my money, my health, my body, my mind, my lack of motivation. ALL AT ONCE. And when any of these topics are brought up, I get super triggered. Wednesday night I got triggered and it bothered me so bad, I called out of work Thursday. I couldn’t leave my bed. I was in bed all day, crying and sleeping. I finally got out of bed at 4:30 pm… I’d say pathetic because I can’t afford to miss another day but I knew I would not have been able to handle it. I feel like I have a few things in my life I depend on to distract me and make me happy but when those things disappoint me, it’s like I have nothing and I feel like shutting down.

I’m really just tired of everything right now. I can’t shake it off… I don’t think I really know how… I want to be alone and away from everyone and everything and maybe that will do some good. I want to step out of my comfort zone and not fall into my usual ways. I wish I knew where to start… maybe an audio book? Anyone know of any good ones to help in this situation? Or what would I even look up? Audio books for feeling lost? I feel my soul crying for help, no, more like screaming for help. Anyways… I hope you all are well and if you’re down, I hope we both can get out of it.