GOING THROUGH IT JUNE 25TH 2023

“Do what you feel in your heart to be right―for you’ll be criticized anyway.”

―Eleanor Roosevelt

GOING THROUGH IT

Recently, my friend posted on her social media saying she was tired of thinking and feeling. Well, SAME. I’m definitely in a form of depression and feeling exactly that, tired of thinking and feeling. I had post surgery depression last year too so I am assuming I may be going through it again. A lot of things just really getting to me: My life, my money, my health, my body, my mind, my lack of motivation. ALL AT ONCE. And when any of these topics are brought up, I get super triggered. Wednesday night I got triggered and it bothered me so bad, I called out of work Thursday. I couldn’t leave my bed. I was in bed all day, crying and sleeping. I finally got out of bed at 4:30 pm… I’d say pathetic because I can’t afford to miss another day but I knew I would not have been able to handle it. I feel like I have a few things in my life I depend on to distract me and make me happy but when those things disappoint me, it’s like I have nothing and I feel like shutting down.

I’m really just tired of everything right now. I can’t shake it off… I don’t think I really know how… I want to be alone and away from everyone and everything and maybe that will do some good. I want to step out of my comfort zone and not fall into my usual ways. I wish I knew where to start… maybe an audio book? Anyone know of any good ones to help in this situation? Or what would I even look up? Audio books for feeling lost? I feel my soul crying for help, no, more like screaming for help. Anyways… I hope you all are well and if you’re down, I hope we both can get out of it.

Month of June, Prince...

I'm a huge Fan of Prince and June is the month of his birthday. I love this cover.

WHAT TO WATCH...

THE PERIPHERAL (Prime) * * * * *
My new favorite sci-fi series. If you like Ready Player One or Westworld, you would like this series. Without giving anything away, this girl she plays a new simulation game with a very realistic feel to it. Only, it's not so much a game... it's real. But how right?! You gotta watch it.

THE GREAT (Hulu) * * * * *
This series has come to an end and honestly, I loved it. When I started it, I felt it was a bit questionable on the music and the.... raunchiness? And I couldn't tell if it was supposed to be funny, so it took me a bit to adjust. It takes place in 18th century Russia and it's about the rise of Catherine the Great... extremely silly and exaggerated story indeed haha.

WHERE THE CRAWDADS SING (Netflix) * * * * *
My girlfriend got me to watch this. It did not disappoint. I never read the book but it was a great mystery drama. It starts off with a dead man and everyone is pointing fingers at the marsh girl, who was abandoned by family and raised herself on marshlands.

Some entertainment I recommend if you have nothing to watch: Daisy Jones and the Six (I've watched it now 4 times haha), Black Mirror, Fear the Walking Dead, American Monster

GALLBLADDER DEPRESSION

I'm about 3 weeks in, post op of having my gallbladder removed. Still can't hold down any food. Not gonna lie, I started feeling hopeless. I'm a foodie person, and not meaning I eat a lot. I just love delicious meals. I'm an Elite Yelper for rating people's food for goodness sake! Anyways, I was trying to search on all my social media platforms and see of anyone talks about their struggles with this. Well, I came across this video and I teared up at the end because I feel like there is hope.

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZT8J3HQTs/

MONTHLY SHOUT OUT

I wanted to use this month's shout out to Nift Gifts. It's a company that gives you gift cards to, usually, newer companies so you can try their product and review them! Definitely check it out! The options do change too in case you think it's always the same options.
https://www.gonift.com/

NOSTALGIA

My co worker was cleaning some stuff out of his place and he found this! He knows I collect Little Lulu stuff so he gave it to me! So stoked!

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