IDKWID JULY 5TH 2023

“Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions.”

―Dalai Lama XIV

I DON’T KNOW WHAT I’M DOING

The quote for today is so relevant of what I am going through. I just want to find myself and find my happiness. I have no idea what I am doing though to get there. I don’t have the funds to help so I am going to try to do it within my means. This week I tried… not that you care to read about my week but maybe you readers can find a pattern that I should keep or break or add???

Monday: Rainy day, didn’t have a good start. I wanted to stay in bed. I had a lot of morning anxiety. I got back into my face regimen, which if you know me, you know I love taking care of my face. Went to work. Tried drinking water, I’m horrible at it but I did try! Took a bath and started audiobook The Untethered Soul, organized pending stuff at home

Tuesday: Tossed and turned all night. Rainy day, morning anxiety. face regimen, felt tired, went home, lazy mode, slept

Wednesday: Tossed and turned all night. Day off. Wake up anxiety. Post op follow up, left feeling positive, went home felt depressed, sat on my ass and just watched tv… went to bed for a nap but instead listened to more Untethered Soul which was enlightening. Took a nap. Made sweet potato tacos, felt good about that. Watched more tv, showered and went to bed.

Thursday: Tossed and turned all night. Morning anxiety. Less loudness in my head which is good… felt a bit of calmness. Made two new recipes, did laundry washed AND FOLDED! lol. Watched tv went to bed.

Friday: Tossed and turned all night. Little bit of morning anxiety. Tried eating breakfast and coffee but my body is still adjusting to having no gallbladder so all that went through me 15 minutes later 🙁

Saturday: Worked, went home did more laundry. Had some family time and watched Evil Dead Rise

Sunday: NO WORK Listened to two more sections from The Untethered Soul. Love this book so far. Finished cleaning the house and organized pending piles from months ago. So that felt satisfying.

Monday: NO WORK Tossed and turned all night. Morning anxiety. More organizing and then went ot Lunar Faire! Then went out ,for what was supposed to be one drink, but turned into many.

Tuesday: NO WORK Unfortunately hungover most of the day. Reminded me how I need to limit my drinking when I go out because I really do hate wasting the next day. I made some yummy food thought, shrimp ceviche/cocktailish. I went to bed around close to 3am and tossed and turned a lot.

Oh I have been working out everyday. Clearly the sleeping is an issue and my morning anxiety… any suggestions? I tried melatonin but I end up feeling tired all day, the next day. For the anxiety, I was thinking of ice packs on my chest or cold morning showers??? Try to get into the Ice Man stuff?

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Breathe…

I’ve always loved this song…

DIDN’T WATCH A LOT…

THE BEAR (Hulu) * * * * *
Season two just came out and you best believe I binged watched it. The acting is sooo good. I was feeling what they were feeling. Story about young chef and his crazy world filled with a troubled family, crazy co workers and dealing with his brothers suicide. Main actor from the show Shameless, Jeremy Allen White. He’s such a great actor.You don’t want to miss out on this show… might give you anxiety lol.

EVIL DEAD RISE (Max) * * * * *
Had a great thrill to it. It was fun to watch. There is a Bruce Campbell cameo… I actually missed it… can you guess who he is?…

NIMONA (Netflix) * * * * *
A new Netflix animation. I watched it with my 13 year old son and we loved it. The story about not fitting, lots of twists and turns. It was funny and heartfelt. Great for the whole family. I definitely recommend the watch.

THE IDOL (MAX)
Garbage.

Some entertainment I recommend if you have nothing to watch: First Wives Club, Because I Said So, Coraline

SELF CARE

Recently, I read answers to a writing prompt on here and it was about self care. I read a lot of interesting answers. Some people felt lost… like me, some people had the same to say like good diet and exercise (which annoys me because there’s got to be more than that). Someone said “self-care is the ACTION of setting peace into motion without judging whether it is right or wrong.” I just loved that because I always judge myself when I try to do some self care. I always feel like I am doing it wrong. I would like to know if anyone has any self care ideas that doesn’t have to do with diet and exercise. This audiobook thing I didn’t think I would like but I enjoy it very much.

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NOSTALGIA

Omg I used to have this vhs with a bunch of cartoons and this was one of them. Any of you remember? Idk why but I just loves these.

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