“You can either experience the pain of discipline or the pain of regret. The choice is yours.”
—Unknown
YEA, WTF…
So I had my staycation this past week, tomorrow I go back to work. I must say, I’ve had better staycations. I usually have my week planned out and this time I didn’t. I did some fun things though.
The last few days kinda suck… I went to my usual local bar, but I didn’t really drink. I found myself observing more. Left me out of place so I went home.
Next night, same thing happened. I’m sitting there kinda having a good time with my water, then me friend next to me, tells me to watch out for this one chick being fake to me. Which was weird because this “fake” person I don’t have problems with but apparently she was talking shit about me. Something about stealing her chair??? When my friend was the one who gave it to me. Haha, ok… drunk people I guess. Then another friend comes and I just see how rude she’s being to our friend, who we both know is into her, but she was just ignoring him and it was obvious… I don’t think he noticed because he’s all about her but I saw and I felt bad. Again, drunk people… Then just the men and their compliments that they probably use on so many other girls… annoying. Then my night ends and I try to talk to my friend about what I’ve been going through, since I hadn’t seen her in a long time and she just kept interrupting me and basically being inconsiderate. So I told her I’m done talking and took her home. She wrote a long text apologizing but I just didn’t have the energy to reply.
I don’t know if it’s this place, or if it’s where I am at in my life… OR just everything…. i did skip a lot of birth control, which i only take to control my PMDD. So now my emotions are extra. Maybe I am noticing I need to be drunk to enjoy socializing at the bar. There’s just so much fakeness there and drama, which I am not a part of but in part of hearing about it… does that make sense. Once again, I am just tired of everything. I used to cry to my husband, before we got married, that I think the world is just disgusting and I am not strong enough to be in it… I’m not going to kill myself… I just really do feel like an alien and I don’t think anyone gets it.
Anyways, sorry I’ve been writing so blah… Hope it gets better for me, for you and everyone.
Gonna get get one last drink to end my vacay. Cheers!
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FEIST
Love this whole album
SOME WATCHES…
BARBIE (In Theaters) * *
I am probably the only female that didn’t care about the movie. The visuals were amazing and I loved that. I don’t want to get political on this movie so I am going to keep my views to myself haha.
TELL ME LIES (Hulu) * * * *
ABOUT TOXIC FRIENDSHIPS, TOXIC RELATIONSHIPS, TOXIC FAMILY
If you like that sheeeit, then this is for you. It’s a series I can’t stop watching, more sex scenes than it needs :-/ but yea I can’t stop watching.
Some entertainment I recommend if you have nothing to watch: The Lost Flowers of Alice Hart, The Summer I Turned Pretty, American Monster Series, 90 Day Fiance, This Fool
ADRENAL COCKTAIL
I’ve come across a bunch of videos about adrenal cocktails. Have any of you ever tried or is it in your daily routine? I have major fatigue and still haven’t been diagnosed with anything because everything always looks fine in my tests. I was thinking about trying this though. Let me know if you know anything about this. Scroll down for replies.
MONTHLY SHOUT OUT
My coworker has an unique eye when it comes to photography. You gotta check out her work, very talented! She has a show coming up, follow her on social media to check it out!
https://gillianmitreuter.com/
THIS WAS HER RECENT SHOW, SO PROUD OF HER!
NOSTALGIA
ARCADES! Remember those? Not sure where you all live but you should look into your local arcade, or if you have one… maybe you are not aware if you have one. They are getting popular again. There’s adult ones and family ones!
SAFETYCUT PROJECTS SERVICES
If you haven’t checked it out yet, yes I make candles! I make symbolic candles. Candles with meaning, I guess you can say like a type of intention candle.
I choose a theme, I do research on the meaning of herbs and flowers so that it matches well with my theme candle. Then I have to play with scents so they smell good together. Each candle has 3 scents I mix, not premixed. They are great for meaningful gifts! Etsy Shop Here
Email: vanessaherrador.sp@gmail.com
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